My thinking about this website has been very uptight. Instead of a full cathartic release I was hung up on the final product and the reaction of others. That’s not what this site is about. Never was, never will be. I haven’t been actively posting in 2 years and yet I was concerned. Fuck that.

My desire to say what I wanted to say conflicted with my want to play it safe and get positive feedback. This resulted in no output rather than deciding to take things one way or the other.

This situation quite reminded me of Freshman football. When I was a pulling-guard I would either be running left or right, to block for the running back. If I forgot which way I was pulling the worst possible thing to do was to block the guy in front of me. If I forgot which way to run but knew I was pulling then choosing left or right would be correct about 50% of the time. By blocking the guy ahead of me the play was ruined. 100% of the time.

Why would anyone choose not to pull in that circumstance? Because if you go the wrong way it’s super obvious and embarrassing. It happened all the time, guards would just freeze rather than risk looking foolish. That’s just how people are. We’d rather be wrong 100% of the time than right 50% of the time and called-out the other 50% of the time. This is especially true when the 100% is defaulted to by inaction.

So, I’m going to write what I feel like writing about when I feel like writing about it. I may gussy up some articles with pictures and lists, I may not. Because really; this is all about me.